Tuesday, November 25, 2014

Refuge

It seems ages since I last blogged. Time and priority certainly changed a lot once you started working, and at times, my emotions certainly got the better of me which got to seriously tone down at times. It seems ironic that I appear as patient, cool and flexible outside work, but during working hours, I find it just hard to be the person that I am outside work.

Anyway, loved this new song composed by New Creation Church - and it certainly brings a reminder about God, who He is to me - my refuge, my strong tower. 


Verse 1 

I call upon Your name, You delivered me from harm 
In the shadow of Your wings no fear comes 
I turn to You alone, Jesus, You’re my guiding light 
In the presence of Your love I will abide 

Verse 2 

No matter what the storm, You command the surging seas 
At Your word there is a calm and a peace 
Forever in Your heart, I can never fall away 
For Your faithful love endures age to age 

 Chorus 

For I say out loud, You are my strong tower 
You will rescue me, Yahweh 
I will not grow faint but my heart grows stronger 
As I choose to seek Your face 

 Bridge 

 I run to You, my refuge, for You are on my side 
 Hosanna, hosanna! God arise!

The clip below is recorded live from service, so quality may not be good as it is recording quality, though I would say it shows how the song goes. :D



Would certainly try figuring out the chords when I am back home in Malaysia - which is only a few weeks from now. =)


Saturday, June 21, 2014

Sharing on Amos 9

Recently, this verse from Amos 9 was shared in Gen Rev, and in my small group.

Amos 9:11-15 (MSG)


11-12 “But also on that Judgment Day I will restore David’s house that has fallen to pieces. I’ll repair the holes in the roof, replace the broken windows, fix it up like new. David’s people will be strong again and seize what’s left of enemy Edom, plus everyone else under my sovereign judgment.” God’s Decree. He will do this. 
13-15 “Yes indeed, it won’t be long now.” God’s Decree.“Things are going to happen so fast your head will swim, one thing fast on the heels of the other. You won’t be able to keep up. Everything will be happening at once—and everywhere you look, blessings! Blessings like wine pouring off the mountains and hills. I’ll make everything right again for my people Israel:“They’ll rebuild their ruined cities.They’ll plant vineyards and drink good wine.They’ll work their gardens and eat fresh vegetables.And I’ll plant them, plant them on their own land.They’ll never again be uprooted from the land I’ve given them.”God, your God, says so.

The passage above spoke about restoration and blessings to the people of Israel. It is also a strong reminder to us that no one can unbless when God have blessed (they'll never again be uprooted from the land I've given them), which is a similar case when Balaam was asked to curse God's people, but instead blessings come out from Balaam's mouth.

Similarly, when we apply this to our situation and believe it, with an expectant heart, and receive it, the time of acceleration would indeed come (it won't be long) - where God's blessings will overflow in our life- so fast and sudden that we could not even keep up with it. Not only that, we could also trust God for our restoration - be it in our relationship, career or anything else. Indeed, the message is pretty simple but truly powerful as shown by this picture posted on Instagram recently.





Also, in Isaiah 40:28-31 (AMP) it said:

28 Have you not known? Have you not heard? The everlasting God, the Lord, the Creator of the ends of the earth, does not faint or grow weary; there is no searching of His understanding.29 He gives power to the faint and weary, and to him who has no might He increases strength [causing it to multiply and making it to abound].30 Even youths shall faint and be weary, and [selected] young men shall feebly stumble and fall exhausted;31 But those who wait for the Lord [who expect, look for, and hope in Him] shall change and renew their strength and power; they shall lift their wingsand mount up [close to God] as eagles [mount up to the sun]; they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint or become tired.
The verse stresses about God's provision- whereby even if we feel tired or just could not take it any more (one example would be we might struggle in our work/relationship/anything currently), we trust that He would provide us strength to overcome this. In other words, we focus on His abundance (look towards Him- He is never lacking and trust that everyday He will lift us up to another level in our work etc), and not our lack/our own strength to overcome the challenges.

Trust me, if we depend on our strength too often, it could lead to burn-out quick - experienced that personally. I am still learning on the application of the verse, but probably the key to this is in the next verse.

- waiting for the Lord. Note that waiting here does not mean waiting passively, and not doing anything. It is waiting 'with expectancies and hope'. In another word, it is to bind together with the Lord whereby our strength comes from Him. A nice picture related to waiting is portrayed below as shared by my CG leader Ruth.


It is a picture whereby the small birds wait with expectancies for their mother on their food (in our case - blessing and restoration in our life, work, relationship etc). Noticed that the small birds are 'hungry' for it. Probably the same level of hunger and expectancies should be shown in our life when we seek Him - and He will then provide us so much blessings that we could not keep up with it, but such that we want to share it with people around us to bless others (as He have blessed us with so much.)

Personally, I am also trusting Him for things like work and relationship (not going to elaborate more. Probably another time. =) )

Truly, the message above spoke out to me - and reminded me that all I need to do simply is to trust Him, pray with expectancies and receive it by faith. Simply put, it would be an effortless journey when He is in the picture.

P.S: It is just so blessed to be part of the sharing session where each person shared about what truly spoke out to them - on the verse, and their personal experience/thoughts. Looking expectantly for more to come! :)

Sunday, May 18, 2014

My Rest


When the busy-ness in life comes, how do one find rest, to pause when there are just so many things to do and deadlines to be met all of the sudden? Probably something which I struggle with at times, but one where I am still learning daily.. To learn how to find true rest in Him, be still, to experience His love, to worship and just enjoy His presence.
The song that I am about to share is just so reflective on the theme rest, as mentioned as well in Psalms 23, where during my first time attending Gen Rev CG, the group reflected on the whole Psalms and shared with each other about the verse that speaks to us the most.

I was reminded about the dry season in my life- my 7 months long struggle in finding a full time job. When I come to think about it now including all the 'shit' that I have gone through, I really feel  now that it's God guide and direction where I would tend to fail some interviews ie recruitment consultant/ sales-related job (even though I have try my best to prepare for it and thought I would somehow pass one), seeing that my character is probably not suited with the sales line and probably I would not be able to last long in those types of job if I got into it.

It's just interesting to see how it all turns out at the end especially when I was really discouraged with life earlier and even have plans to leave Singapore due to unemployment. In short, I am really glad that that period is over, and I truly relishes to see what would unfold next in this new job, especially when I have just shifted to Tuas (pharmaceutical plant) recently. :)

Currently, my job as a validation engineer would require me to exhibit some important skills, which is patience and extreme accuracy to detail which I believe is also part of my strength. Although I may not fully like the fact that I do make some mistake as well (well, who doesn't?), I believe that as time passes, I would be more well-versed with what is required from me. Though there may be high expectancies regarding the quality of work that I am suppose to deliver, I am reminded yet again about 'rest', and know that He would guide me in the responsibilities which have been entrusted to me.

The lyrics of the songs are as below. Enjoy. :)
My soul finds rest in You my Jesus
My hiding place amid the storm
In pastures green You lead me down to lie
By waters still I shall abide
By waters still I shall abide
I shall not fear for times uncertain
I shall not look to my own strength
Into Your hands I place my hopes and plans
My trust is in the blood of the Lamb
My trust is in the blood of the Lamb
A crown of thorns pierced through Your temple
The blood that flowed took all my cares
What price You paid, what sacrifice You made
My life in Yours, Jesus my rest
My life in Yours, Jesus my rest

Tuesday, March 11, 2014

I will follow after You

I will follow after you as long as my soul lives
I will lift up my hands unto thy name O Lord
My mouth shall praise You because You have been my help

 In the shadow of Your wings will I rejoice my Lord
Your loving kindness overwhelms my soul O Lord
And I will bless You I will love You all my life

I will mediate on You in the darkest nights
Seek your face oh my Lord In the morning light
My soul longs for You in a dry and thirsty land

 In Your holy sanctuary will I behold Your face
Your loving right hand guides and covers all my ways
And I will love You for You love me all my life

I will give You glory
Pour my life upon Your feet
For Your grace and mercy
Is more than enough
More than enough

Recently, I was introduced to this song while attending service at New Creation Church, and I am truly blessed by this song. The lyrics just touched me deeply, and it reminds me that no matter what I may go through right now, if I truly follow Him, it is just what I should do in life.. to seek after Him, to praise Him for all the things that He has done as long as I am still in this world.

Yes, I may not have a full time now, but I know that I have already did my part in searching diligently for a suitable job (although it may be a really long period of 6-7 months), and now all I can do is just wait. No point rushing although I do admit money could be my sole concern right now.

Anyway, the last 2 interview was positive and I am hopeful that I would receive a reply in a few weeks time. However, even if the silence continues on, let His will be done because He knows what is best for my life. Even if I may be forced to leave Singapore due to unable to find employment, it may be His will after all, but still, I have a bond to serve, and I believe that I should not just give up just like that especially when it seems so close now to seal employment.

In short, let His will be done. I can only do my part by diligently seeking for jobs which are suitable, and He is the one who decides the job that I should be in ( which I will take it as a sign on whichever job offer comes first). In the mean time, I do have time to read up on books that I have missed. So, yeah, I do have things to do even if I may not be employed and lacking of money at the moment. :)

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Found this cover nicely done on You Tube. Enjoy and be blessed. :)



Wednesday, February 12, 2014

The Five Principles Of Performance

First post of the year!

Reading this on Linkedin. It's amazing to see how I treated Linkedin more seriously since this year. The pursuit in getting a job for a total of close to 6 months certainly doesn't help, but well, I believe by the time I finally get one, I know I would treasure it seriously, and probably work my ass out, even if it may sacrifice my social life or whatever.

Anyway, read on. It's a real nice article which tells about success correlation to performance.
 

Tuesday, December 24, 2013

Last post of the year (2013)

I guess it's time to make a closing post since year 2013 is going to be ending soon.


Wednesday, August 7, 2013

Convocation photo

After one week, I received this photo in my email.


Probably one of the highlights in 2013, where the memories of this day have to be treasured always. 

Monday, June 3, 2013

Graduated!

It's official. After 4 years, this is the first time I feel relieved after getting my final results. (as it would be my last time)

Of course, the picture is edited slightly since I would choose not to reveal my actual results (okay, I may have reveal it in my earlier posts :D) . Still, the results is expected and I am grateful that my final year project got A-! That have been my worry for quite a while, but glad it's all over! :D

Awaiting my convocation, which would be on 29 July at 6 pm.

Plans now:

Attend church camp (3-5 June) at Tambun.
Finish up some of my books and movies which I have downloaded.
Prepare mentally before I commence my first job at PWG Genetics as a junior study director on 1st July. Hoping my first job (or rather long term job) would be a satisfying experience where I could learn, grow and mature.

Future plans:

Ending my singlehood days. I actually think this is a tough one to achieve unless I am able to change who I am (in terms of dressing/style or basically outward appearance), besides being more involved in social activities/ volunteer work and be a more selfless/outgoing type of person.

(Well, I do know my own weaknesses, but somehow haven't really put any effort to change it. *need to constantly remind myself on that*)

Well, I have no more future plans other than that, as that is actually the first step for other future plans. So, yeah, it is indeed my heart desire, but I realize that those kind of stuffs could not be forced, but rather, it would come some day - I hope.

P.S: Would try to update often since it's been 4 months since I last posted something here! Lol. Actually, it's because nothing really meaningful happens in my final sem, thus nothing to post. Hopefully that won't be the case when I start work!


Dato Bandar 2013 tournament

It's been a while since my last tournament in Malaysia (GACC). Since I have just finished my studies in NTU, have decided to come back to Ipoh to relax and slack before I endured the next phase of life as a working adult.

Admittedly, I have thought this tournament (Dato Bandar) would be easy, as most of the top players are suppose to be in National Closed / preparing for it. Guess I was wrong. Here's part of the participant list.


As shown here, I was kind of stunned and feeling regretful when I see the list, since the registration fee is RM30, and I have a high chance to lose that amount with such a field. So, could only hope for a favourable pairing which isn't that favorable, but not that bad. Anyway, time control is 25 min (without increment).

The list of my opponents: -


First round, I got a bye which results in lower tie break, but of course that isn't the concern in the final ranking since 6-10th placing gives back your registration fee. 

The real game starts from round 2-5, and became easier (surprisingly) after that. In round 2, I faced Anthony where he played a weird variation of a Caro- Kann (or maybe he is just underestimating me?) - e4 c6 d4 Na6!? .. Okay, admittedly, he got a better position in the middle game after that, but unluckily blunder a knight and is forced to resign since there are no 'swindles' available. :D 

Round 3 paired me against Fadzil, where I lost. Okay, since he is one of the strong players in Malaysia, perhaps its okay to lose. Still, I need to analyze my slav in detailed since there is some opening inaccuracies (always happen when I take the pawn on c4 and defending it with b5)

Round 4, I was up against Nabil, one of the past National Junior Champion. Was kind of amazed with my 'luck' at this point of time, but at least I am taking white, and my confidence while taking white is always higher compared to the black side for some reasons (proven in every tourney that I have played so far). 

Played an anti-Sicilian line, got into slight trouble (where he failed to find one line that actually wins). After a few moves, the position becomes like this, and I thought after I push e6, I should be able to win easily (which is suppose to be the fact after computer analysis). Guess I was wrong. 


After e6, he countered with g5 to complicate things (wanting to play g4, and perhaps mate me somehow), and I went into some sort of calculation mode. In my mind, I thought it should be a simple win after Qc3+ (trading off the queen and then roll my pawns). Actually, computer suggested fxg5, but with so many variations playable in time trouble, I doubt its easy to find it. Lol. 

Anyway, quite a 'fair' game. He misses his chance earlier and I missed my chance in the end. 

Round 5 was a match where I was matched against Nabil's father. During that match, I have to admit that I have no plan at all - where I just simply play defense due to my position getting pressured. In the end, blundered a pawn and lost the ending. 

Round 6 was easy since my opponent blundered a piece early. 

Round 7, was paired against one guy whom I trashed in GACC. Unfortunately, I was taking black in this tournament. Managed to grab a few pawns in my favourite slav variation (and got a strong counter with my pawn march), but got attacked rather badly on the king side. Luckily, managed to find a strong defense where he somehow did a Japanese 'kamikaze' due to frustration perhaps. :D

Overall, I was placed 8th, a relatively good placing considering the strong field and good luck perhaps. (not meeting any more strong opponents after round 5). Good news is I got back RM30, which is the registration fee. Lol. 

Results overall (for top ten placing): 

Link to chess-results: HERE





Saturday, February 2, 2013

Last GACC - 2013

Finally the event ends, and unfortunately, it's going to be my last one since I would be graduating this sem. Overall, in terms of points, I improved by 0.5 points (could have been 1 point improvement from last year, but I failed to win in a winning position in the last round - and that sucks).

Anyway, a general comment regarding the event overall: - 

Accommodation: No comment, seeing that the NTU team were staying in Jasmine Towers, which was only a few minutes drive from UM. 

Food: The daily food in the hostel degraded slightly from last year. However, the food at the closing ceremony improved a lot!  

Playing venue: Suitable, as it was not as cold as last year. However, I do feel the playing venue last year was better (with the air-cond as exception)

Participants: Very tough as the Russian team was present and they almost whack everyone (except Fadzil, where he somehow manage to draw against all 4 members of the Russian team. :D ) 

Performance of NTU team: Retained 6th standing, but we could have done better. Just do not know the reason why 2 members of our team lost 4 games in a row (perhaps morale was hurt badly?), and that actually hurts the team score a lot. However, I do hope that the NTU team could come back better next year (although I would not be there anymore) 

Anyway, pictures on the off day (and the closing ceremony itself) :- 


Closing ceremony - NTU and UM team. 


Closing ceremony - Singapore team (NTU + NUS) with our liaison Hui Jing.


Picture taken in Chinatown on our off day. 


Picture taken in Home Made Fish Head Noodle (Mid Valley) with our old liaison - Ai Wen and current batch of juniors from UM. Celebrated Na Na's birthday there as well. :) 


Now, that the event have ended, the real final sem begins where it will commence with a presentation for Engineer and Society (this week) and the rush to complete final year project by mid April (which I do not even know whether I can complete it by that time due to starting really late which is frankly not my fault).

Also, there is the pressure of applying for jobs. Hoping to secure one before graduation if its possible. 


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