Sunday, May 29, 2016

Short Update on Life

Been a while since I last posted as there are so many things going on in my life, but I felt compelled to post this.

1. Year of Possessing Our Possessions for church. Personally, I felt this year is more of restoration in a way. =)

2. Switched company early May this year, and moved on to a new role that is rather interesting and challenging. The pay package is definitely a lot better although I have to admit that I was rather hesitant to make the switch earlier as I was not sure whether that is God's plan or not. However, I think the decision is correct, thanks to advice from my CGL/good friends from CG.

Though I may be still new, and also 'argumentative' once in a while which is an apparent weakness of mine, I trust that this is an open door from the Lord (one of my prayer requests this year in fact). Praying that I would learn to accept other people opinion, and not being so 'perfectionist' cause I believe that this trait could irritate people, especially my new colleagues who is really nice and helpful towards me. Believed that the Lord would work something in me, and that I would learn how to rest in Him, and not blaming myself if things didn't go the way I expected it to be.

3. 28 May 16- an important milestone in my life, and one which I would never even expect to happen so fast after the incident that happened last year. (my break-up)

Got together officially with a really wonderful, strong and independent girl, engineer (same profession with mine. :D), loves books, one that also loves God, and also in the same church. I am rather excited on how this would lead, but I believe that if God is in the center of our relationship, the journey together would be one that is really interesting, although there would certainly be challenges that comes our way. (which do happen in every relationship). In fact, I am really looking forward to the days ahead, with her!

Really felt blessed, especially when this is something totally unexpected this year, and to be honest, I am certainly skeptical about this earlier when I made the 3 wishes. Somehow, I have a strong feeling that this would be one that would lead to marriage (in a couple of years maybe), but we shall see. :)

Dear, if you are reading this, which I know you will, I love you, and I pray that we will continue to have meaningful conversations with each other + enjoying each other presence through the activities that we would be doing together in the days to come. More importantly, let us continue to put God first in our life, and trust that He is the one that would bring us even closer together, despite the challenges that would come our way. Let us walk this journey together, hand in hand and to support each other in our times of difficulties in work and life. Let us also be committed in pointing each other to Christ when either one of us were to place our focus on the wrong things. 

And lastly, thank you dear for letting me experience the feeling on loving and being loved, which is something which I always wanted in life. Long to spend the rest of the days with you. =)

Friday, January 1, 2016

Reflection for the year 2015

It is the time of the year again to reflect on the year as a whole. For me, reflection helps to keep track on my life, on how God have bought me through despite the ups and downs experience over the years, and also to keep track on the substantial changes/improvement over the years.
2015 theme for the church was a year of restoration, where personally I did see restoration in the area of work.

At the start of the year, I was still involved in the most boring task to date as a validation engineer, which is copying the same old script again and again for a few hundred times. I honestly don't think anyone would relish such a task, and yes, bitterness did indeed get into me, especially when other people who just entered the team got a more interesting task while I am still stuck with pipette. 

Fast forward a few months later, I am posted to Johor.

Thank goodness it's only a few months before the new posting. I really thought I would be going to be stuck doing "human copying" job for this year and have ever since given up any hope of any changes to my role. 

This Johor assignment is definitely more interesting with challenges on its own, mainly the traffic coming back to SG everyday and increased responsibilities, with a car given to me, and new job scope. Initially, I was concerned about many things as I was just in a new relationship with my now-ex (as I would have less time to spend with her due to traveling between Johor and Singapore daily). 

Well, even though there are challenges in terms of utilities like wifi/no phone signal, limited choice of food etc earlier, it is still considered a lot better than the first project I was assigned to if you take in the whole package. One good thing of having an assignment in Malaysia is that I can take advantage of the good exchange rate and enjoy better food (after work, I drove myself to better areas before coming back just to avoid the jam) if compare to Singapore.  

Still, it's a rather good experience whereby I have to learn how to survive on my own, without any help from anyone. Learned how to write some protocols (SOP, FAT, URS etc) and also various other documentation tasks that needed support. 

Fast forward to my current project, which I really enjoyed the most. For this project, my role changes from "only validation" to "project engineer".  This is where my restoration really begins although it didn't felt so at first. 

Initially, during the first month, to be honest, it is not enjoyable at all. Imagine placed in a situation where you have not done that sort of thing before (in my case, piping and instrumentation diagram, cutting/welding/related drawings/scaffold) and is expected to give solutions on the problems faced. You also realized you have to take over a project from someone who is so much more experienced than you and co-ordinate the activities within the timeline given, without sufficient knowledge or technical expertise.

Given that my experience at that time is only on validation documents (laboratory equipment) and a bit of project support in change request/project scheduling, it is certainly a steep learning curve for me on an area unexplored before.  Initially, I faced a lot of scolding until there comes a point where I just felt like quitting/resigning due to incompetency on the task given. Certainly demoralizing at that moment.

I thank God that there is grace, in all this. His grace is evident in the times when I just dreaded going to work. My supervisor saw me rather depressed earlier on, and changed his approach in dealing with me. Slowly, I started to gain back a bit of confidence after the screw-up earlier on, and I thank God that he is rather patient with me, explaining why certain things have to be done as such. I am glad to say as of now, the work is becoming more "familiar". At least now I know what is needed to be done and also how to do it although there are certain hiccups along the way.

The good thing about this project is about the people you are working with, unlike the first 2 project. In this project, everyone does their part in making the task successful, and I am thankful that my supervisor still do give good advice on how to do certain things even though he is also busy with his own responsibilities. 

My colleagues was also really nice.. There are a few occasions where they are concerned over my lifestyle (drinking too much soda during lunch break, no exercise etc) which I do acknowledge. Not often do you find people/friends that would say out the things that you need to hear, and that is something which I really appreciate in this company.

On many occasions, I could be 'funny' or 'blur' which was noted by many. Not sure why but it could be just my character is really like that. That impression definitely need to be changed in due course, especially in the professional world. If not, people would not take you seriously. Wanted to be someone that is serious and also fun when the occasion demands it. (refer to the 3 wishes for the year 2016)

I am sure I would really miss them by the time my contract ends. Here are a few pictures taken on/after work with my colleagues.



Outing at Oma Spoon. Awesome dessert!




Photo booth during Christmas. Feel their HR is quite fun.



Gift exchange and outing at Play Nation with interns as well. :)


Next would be the area of relationship. Yes, although I may thought God has already given me a life partner (earlier this year), things doesn't work well at the end which is partly my fault. Still, many things that I do gain out from that experience (as can be seen from my previous posts).

This year is also a new season in CG, when Yi Wei came in, replacing Eugene as CGL for West Coast Rise CG due to Eugene long term work in Brazil. When Yi Wei leads, you could expect to be challenged to think more about certain issues, especially when he asked lots of questions that could be interesting and yet difficult to answer. Personally, for me, he also provides good advice and support especially during my break-up with my ex in Sep.

On New Year Eve, he shared about God's grace that enabled him to reach out to some of the CG members where some share about their hurts and struggles to him. Personally, he felt blessed to be part of our life even though he is only merely a few months in the CG and points it down to God's unmerited favor. He mentioned too that everyone in the CG is unique in its own way which prompts him to ask lots of questions to know each one better.

Personally, I think if you have a leader like him, you feel like you can just share stuffs with him, knowing that he would be one that listens and also brings you back to the word besides offering practical advice. In fact, he was the first person I shared on that very fateful day when she sends that message, which leads to emotional breakdown during work that time. That certainly speaks volume, as I am not particularly one that opens up to just any people unless I feel comfortable in doing so.

Blessed to have him as a CGL. Maybe one of my resolution for 2016 should be to record down what he says during CG. :) Like the way he summarized things especially revelations which he shared with the CG as well. Here's some of the pictures taken with the CG in 2015.



Pic taken during gift of love. 



Christmas celebration with the west clusters.



Countdown during NYE at Yi Wei's house

It is also a great time bonding with my serving team (Mighty A3) this year. Although there are moments where separation has to occur (like Jennifer transferring to lead another team), there are also awesome moments of fellowship with the team outside service. 

Most interesting moment is during the ASA (Annual Server's Appreciation) preparation.




WE-fie for ASA (to see which team is creative). Although we didn't win in the end, it is definitely a fun activity! Can't to see what's in 2016.




Some of the Mighty A3 team during ASA this year. Although we did not really put much effort into our "costumes", it is still great to just be in the team. 


Fast forward to year end, and it's Thanksgiving Sunday, last service of the year, where as a church, we come together to thank Him for His goodness in the year 2015. Of course, there comes the annual prayer request for the upcoming year.



For the upcoming year, decided to be more specific in what I would like to see in the year 2016, on what I would like to trust God for. 


Prayer request for the year 2016 would be:-




Not sure why prayer request 1 is bigger in font. Lolz.


It's centered around 3 theme as usual - career, relationship and character development which is particularly important during this season in life. 

Can't wait to see what is the theme for the year 2016. The first service of the year is also particularly meaningful especially when my dad would be attending the service together as well. He came all the way from Ipoh (for my birthday and to help out with spring cleaning of my room). Definitely do appreciate this gesture. And if I were to add in another prayer request, it would be good health for my family. A bit worried with my dad's coughing that doesn't seem to be recovering any time soon.

To sum it all, the year 2015 was a pretty interesting year, with ups and downs, and also lots of lesson learned along the way. I trust that the year 2016 would be a more interesting year and even better!

Tuesday, November 10, 2015

Life Partner Desire

It's been 2 months since the break-up and since then, have not be in contact with her at all due to getting blocked, partly from my own folly. Life's been busy, and sometimes these questions still pops out.

Would things be different if I did not went back to my hometown? Is it all part of God's will - that we broke up, and if yes, why then even have the relationship in the first place? 

Or is there something that God wants to show to me - about what a relationship is, and allow me to experience it first hand knowing all the problems that would come out so that in future, those would be expected? After all, I have jumped into this out of faith (and due to being attracted to her personality and the common grounds which we have in the first place), and perhaps I might not even be fully prepared to pay the price for it when we first started out. 

So, you may ask what is the price to pay? From my limited experience, I would say that your life is no longer "yours" when there is a "someone" in your life. You got to learn how to care about the needs of your other half (not only your own need), and be willing to take comments (include criticism) which would involve change - and change is hard especially when there is a lot of change required. Ah yes, you would need to also be respectful of the elders and be tactful especially when there are disagreements. 

Besides that, when differences arose in opinions/ different expectations, it's really important to talk it out - on why the frustration happens. When this happens (which will definitely happen in any relationship), both couple have to bring it up to the Lord and pray about it together. If Christ is in the center of the relationship (and He is our focus), honestly, I wouldn't think those frustrations etc would be permanent. Thus, I am concluding that perhaps when we were together, the focus is not truly on Him even though we might have done bible reading/study together, pray together and discussed about those expectations. Yes, we did almost all the "correct stuffs" which a couple should do, but still fall apart for some reasons.

Besides the reflection above, have also asked why do I even need a life partner in the first place. After all, Paul is also single right? And he can focus more on his ministry because of that. 

After thinking about that question, my honest answer would be that I long for companionship and the fact is.... I do not want to live my life alone for the rest of my life. I want to have kids of my own, where I am able to experience the joy (and frustration) of parenting. I want the thrills of being able to love and be loved! 

Have also been thinking what I would be looking for in a life partner. This time, I would be more specific when asking from God. The ideal characteristics/factors that I would look for is :-

1. Culture/background. I would prefer it if the girl is also from NCC, and serving in ministry. In my opinion, if both comes from different church, it could be a huge barrier especially when the culture of the church is also different (ie one practice speaking in tongues and another not at all). Or rather charismatic vs traditional. 

2. Personality. She have to be wise, independent, patient, radiant, understanding and most importantly, "whole". It's very hard to maintain the relationship if the girl still carries some baggage from her past relationship, which do happens in my case often. She also have to be able to make decisions by herself without being too dependent on parents/what other people would say. 

3. Chemistry/common ground. Without chemistry, it's hard to even begin a relationship. Of course, I would need to first know that I am able to communicate with her, and hopefully able to reach the stage where we are able to discuss deeper topics about our future, dreams, and how we can grow together in the Lord etc. The girl would also be able to accept who I am and not expect me to change overnight/to conform to the expectation of her parents etc. 

Of course, admittedly my weaknesses could frustrate a girl at times, but it would be great and ideal if the girl instead be someone that is able to walk this journey with me, and instead gives pointers on how to improve and not be angry/frustrated when things are still not perfect/up to expectation yet.

4. Appearance/Looks. It's important to be at least someone that is pretty in my eyes. ;) Would prefer someone that is long hair though. ;)

5. Able to help each other grow together in the Lord through the word! This is perhaps the most important factor when searching for a life partner. When we are both focused on the Lord, indirectly, both of us would also go closer towards each other and as mentioned earlier, any differences/frustration would not even be an issue in the first place if this is the primary focus.

On my side, changes that would be required is :-

1. Being whole and secure. I need to learn how to enjoy being alone first (with the Lord), and let the wounds heal as time passes. It's selfish to carry my hurts and disappointment from my first relationship, and then have the next girl try to heal it. That is not the way either especially if my expectation is for a girl that is "whole". 

2. Forget about financial concerns/being money-minded. This is one of my biggest weakness. I always worry about the cost of wedding etc when I am with her (maybe partly due to pressure that I need to get marry in 1-2 years due to her grandmother/mum expectation). Have to learn to trust the Lord in such areas and not let this even affect the relationship. 

3. Learn how to lead. Have been talking with a Christian friend in workplace regarding this, and I do agree that a guy have to know how to lead the family. She did mention that being a leader in workplace does not mean you are a good leader at home. Probably one way is to read books on that - to improve myself in this area and besides that, pray. 

4. Be more mature - in thoughts and able to handle my own emotions well. I believe this relates to point 1. 


In short, as I am writing this post, I am praying and believing that God would help me and be with me in the preparation process towards receiving what He has in store for me in the future - include life partner, career etc.

In my opinion, no point praying about blessings if you are not even ready in the first place to receive it, which is why I personally believe the preparation process is more important than receiving the gift itself. As for how long the preparation process is, I would not know, but I know that He do knows my heart desire! ;) 



Monday, September 21, 2015

Lessons learned from first relationship

It was a sweet period of 6 months of getting to know her and asking her to be official- as my first love. Abruptly, it ends on 15 Sep 2015 which came as a shock to me as I was expecting us to meet to talk about this issue, but certainly not to this extent! Admittedly, it's due to my fault of not reacting appropriately at many occasions and also frustrations from her side as she feels she always need to tell me what to do.

But still, an honest reflection from my side...

Overall, she is a really sweet and nice girl albeit a little controlling (shown by the creation of a green note book that details what I should do and not do, which is a put off to me actually. But because I love her, I agree with that, although I did attempted to bring out another book - a book of positives which does not come to pass). 

I can see that she would like her future husband (unfortunately not me) to be able to provide the security that she needed, have a strong ambition/hunger for success (aka money/confidence), and one that is able to please her parents - which unfortunately I did displease her parents on a few occasions, especially the recent Ipoh trip, which is a catalyst for the break-up in this relationship. 

Have regretted a lot of things that I have done during this small trip. However, what is done is done, and the only thing is to move on now (which is hard especially when I have gone in so deep). The deeper you go, the more the hurt would be. 

Also, some thoughts that came out from my mind after this break up as an act to comfort myself and to move on..

If she can't even accept my weaknesses (which is a lot I admit), how then would this relationship be sustained in the long term? I did attempt to correct some of the weaknesses pointed out by her, but of course do stumble at times, whereby she would be instantly upset when I 'repeat' some of the mistakes. Did repeatedly asked her to try to focus on the strengths instead, but unfortunately it is perhaps the way that she was bought up, whereby she is attentive to all the 'minor details' which honestly shouldn't even been an issue in the first place.. 

Then there's a difference between 'church practices' whereby I might have to go to a traditional church, and to be honest, I am not sure whether I would be happy to do so (as she is pretty firm on this point and sees leaving her own church similar to leaving the parents, which I find the explanation absurd.  Remember, I also leave my parents to come to Singapore to work, but that does not mean I leave them as they are always in my heart). 

Have avoided arguing with her to the best that I can, and admittedly, sometimes it could just be too one-sided, whereby I might not even have any say on anything at all. Also, the fact that she decided to just break up without even wanting to meet/ doing a final closure upsets me greatly. Certainly not what I expect from a girl like her - a person that avoids confrontation due to fear.. 

Thus, my father may be right that it's probably the best for the both of us to break up, and that I should be thankful that she was the one who initiates this, as I am sure I would not be able to do so due to my character of being loyal, and one that would always try to resolve problems peacefully. Not sure whether she would even stay in contact or not as a "friend" after this, but probably not! On my side, I would always be open to discuss about this, as a friend.

There's definitely a lot to learn about improving myself overall, and this experience may show that I am not ready to get into a relationship - until I can improve on being attentive, financially more stable (which leads to confidence), generous and show high level of respect/understanding to the elders even though I may not agree with everything that they said. 

Through this experience, I learned more about myself, improved myself a bit on the bad habits and most importantly experience the feeling of love and being loved, although it was not a fairy tale ending unfortunately. 

I also realized that people around me are very supportive during this tough period and it certainly helps in the "letting go" part and make me realized how blessed I am, and how good daddy God is, that He did not let me go through this alone! I am blessed to have a good CGL, great parents, and nice colleagues who have advised me a lot during this period. Really appreciate all of them! 

The next chapter in my life is still unclear to me, but probably I would devote more time in serving in church, feeding on His word, and just let Him be my guide in everything. I should not be forcing stuffs, but rather just rest on His unfailing love! 

He certainly knows my desire for a life partner, and I would continue to trust in Him in that area, taking things more slowly the next time around (instead of going too fast like this one, which result in pain and disappointment)

A friend have experienced this similar issue, and I like what she have commented in the end. 

Looking back, I am thankful. For without these seasons of being broken, my heart would not have been ready to experience the blessings and Joy He is waiting to pour out on me. My hands needed to be emptied off the things I was clinging on to, in order to receive what He wanted to give me. Broken, rebuilt. Broken, rebuilt. The cycle goes on, but we can emerge each time from strength to strength and from glory to glory, if and only if we are willing to release our own hurts and dreams to Him, and let Him be the one writing your story. There can be no lasting Joy apart from being with Him. And truly, no long-lasting Inside Out transformation would be possible. 

For me, would like to end up this post with this verse (Romans 8:28)

And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose..

And yes, this include the bad, the ugly, broken hearts, and everything. Just let all those things go, put it into God's mighty hands, and let Him turn it into something glorious! 



Wednesday, August 26, 2015

Love On The Line

A nice cover done by a few youths from New Creation Church. Enjoy!

Previous video (Open Heaven) was removed due to copyright infringement. Hopefully this one won't as it is a cover! :)






[VERSE 1]
You put your love on the line
To bear the weight of sin that was mine
Washing my river of wrongs 
Into the sea of your infinite love 

[Chorus]
With arms held high 
Lord I give my life 
Knowing I'm found in Christ 
In your Love forever

With all I am 
By your Grace I stand 
The greatest of all romance 
Love of God my Saviour 

[VERSE 2]
Mercy roars like hurricane winds 
Furious love laid waste to my sin 

[Bridge]
To the one who has rescued my soul 
To the one who has welcomed me home
To the one who is saviour of all I sing forever

Sunday, July 5, 2015

Hillsong Conference 2015 - Open Heaven

It's been a long time since I last blogged, but just wanted to post something regarding Hillsong Conference 2015, a conference that I have longed to go for since I was young, and finally it comes to pass!

First off, let's come to a song that is just totally awesome, and which keeps echoing in my ears after the conference!


Here's the lyrics. Enjoy the song and may you catch the fire as well! :)

Verse 1

Signs and wonders from above
When You pour out Your spirit
On the old and the young
In the power of Your presence

Chorus 1

Holy spirit rain
Falling like a flood
Break upon my praise
As I sing of Your love

Holy spirit fire
Burn within my soul
As I call on Your name
As I call on Your name 
Jesus

Verse 2

Dreams and visions of the son
As I stand in Your presence
Revelations of Your love
As I look to the heaven

Chorus 2

Oh Holy Spirit
Burn like a fire
All consuming
Consume me

Here in Your presence
Lord I surrender to Your glory
For Your glory

Bridge

Living water
River wild in me
Immerse me in Your mercy
Open heavens crushing over me
Restore me to Your glory

Updated on 26 Aug. Video removed due to copyright infringement.

Update on 1st sep. Blogger have sent me a notice that I infringe copyright even though the video is already removed which I think it is a bit unfair but oh well, things do happen.

I hope the edited post have no copyright infringement? If lyrics also infringe copyright, I have NOTHING to say.

Monday, January 5, 2015

2015 - Year Of His RESToration

What could be more appropriate than naming the first post of 2015 with the church theme - the year of His RESToration? =)



Animation of the theme as shown during service:-





Just wanted to share a summary of the sermon from today (Vision Sunday)





Whatever the devil has taken from us, He will restores. And when He restores, the restoration would always be in greater quantity/quality or both. This is shown in Exodus 22:1

“If a man steals an ox or a sheep, and slaughters it or sells it, he shall restore five oxen for an ox and four sheep for a sheep.

and Leviticus 6:4-6

4 Then if he has sinned and is guilty, he shall restore what he took by robbery, or what he secured by oppression or extortion, or what was delivered him to keep in trust, or the lost thing which he found,
5 Or anything about which he has sworn falsely; he shall not only restore it in full, but shall add to it one fifth more and give it to him to whom it belongs on the day of his trespass or guilt offering.
6 And he shall bring to the priest his trespass or guilt offering to the Lord, a ram without blemish out of the flock, valued by you to the amount of his trespass;

This verse points to what the people should do under the old covenant when they have wronged someone. However, under the new covenant, it is Jesus that restores to us whatever the devil has taken, which is 120% (100% + 20% - one fifth). In other words, the greater the loss, the greater the restoration!

Even the years that you have lost (your own fault/years that you have sinned/wasted away etc), He could restore as shown in Joel 2:25

“So I will restore to you the years that the swarming locust has eaten, The crawling locust, The consuming locust, And the chewing locust, My great army which I sent among you. (Joel 2:25 NKJV)

One example which pastor have shown and which was not preached before is an incident happened within his own family whereby he actually did lost his second child before (I think I was kind of shocked when I heard that). However, the restoration was indeed there as the Lord bless him with Justin! Indeed, it is a message of hope whereby we should not be discouraged when something is lost as the restoration is indeed greater, which he could also see in Justin.

It reminded me about a verse (Genesis 50:20)

As for you, you thought evil against me, but God meant it for good, to bring about that many people should be kept alive, as they are this day.

What the enemy meant for evil, God will turn it for our good and many will be saved as they see us going through the fire and coming out stronger and more prosperous and blessed on the other side.

Another animation video:- (to show REST)


 

Our fight is a fight of faith (not feeling), we fight FROM victory and not for victory. All we need to do is to rest in the cross, His finished work which was often taught here in New Creation. However, it's interesting to see how it all linked up, as shown in Psalm 23:1-3

The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want. 
He makes me to lie down in green pastures; He leads me beside the still (rest) waters. 
He restores my soul; He leads me in the paths of righteousness For His name’s sake. (Psalms 23:1-3 NKJV)

As you can see, 'He restores my soul' is sandwiched between the words 'He leads me'. The first thing He made us do is to lie down in green pastures (green pastures represents food here). In other words, before He restores our soul, He wants us restful, resting in the things He has already done.

After that, He leads us in the paths of righteousness. Many a times, we do not have the strength to walk in the path of righteousness cause we are striving to achieve righteousness on our own strength, and there is no soul restoration as we do not REST.

The greatest activity that we can do is to be still (not inactive rest as it could be easily misunderstood as such), and let God take over, as shown in Ruth 3: 18

Then she said, “Sit still, my daughter, until you know how the matter will turn out; for the man will not rest until he has concluded the matter this day.” (Ruth 3:18 NKJV)

This is where the famous saying, "When you rest, God works! When you work, God rest!" comes from. Indeed, a truth where many are struggling with as it is often hard for us to 'rest' when there are so many 'demands' demanded of us and whereby we often wants to take matters in our own hand.

It is also one area whereby I am still learning from. Although there might be demands in the workplace, I could choose to do it with a restful spirit (instead of a disoriented, negative and troubled spirit).

Truly a message in season - resting in Him for our restoration.

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And yes, my birthday is just over.

Thanks to Michelle and Daniel for treating me to a sumptuous dinner on Friday (I actually feel quite guilty as the bill is around $90) and being with me shopping for formal shirts ($58 for 2 quality shirts - something that is way cheaper than expected!)

Thanks to my CG who celebrated with me on New Year as well. =)



And lastly, thanks to a friend whom I just met, who gave me some really really awesome presents (I have not received a present and certainly have not expected this!)


Finding Your Life Partner series. Initially was shocked when I saw that but truly grateful for the gift, and it resonates well with one of my prayer requests/ vision that I wanted to see in my life for 2015! =)


A dvd series from the Zone - God's favor will cause you to reign in life! 


A bible! In fact, I am embarrassed to say that this is the only hardcopy of the bible that I have.


Encouraging messages =)

Never expected so many presents especially when she have not met me even once before. I mean I am already happy with wishes, and this certainly is what I would never expect. Truly grateful and thankful for her generous spirit, one which I ought to practice as well. =)

Time to end the first post of the year. Not sure when I would post again, but probably when I am free. =)





Wednesday, December 31, 2014

Reflections for year 2014

Finally it comes to the end of this year, where it's time to make a reflection ( in another word, a very long post) for things that have happened for the past year.

In short, 2014 is probably one of the best and most fruitful year ever (a big contrast from year 2013 - the year where I was at my lowest peak).

Timeline for 2014:-

January 2014 



Attended Joel's wedding, one of my close friend whom I have known for many years. Was pianist that time as well. =)

Well, the year may not start that great as I was still jobless in Jan, but still, some events like this do cheer up my soul!

March 2014

Alas, after awaiting an offer since August 2013, the job offer finally came this month, and trust me when I say this - it really sucks being jobless even after attending countless interviews/seeking advice from friend/browsing through job portals, agents and trying everything to the point of desperation whereby any job also can as long as I get one - even those jobs that are not suitable to my personality such as recruitment consultant/sales.

I still remembered the feeling of hitting rock bottom, unable to get out of the pit, rejected, wanting to give up and also wondering is there any purpose in life. Seeing all others around me (course mates, friends etc) getting employed (and yet I am not!) doesn't help much to my self-esteem either.  To put it bluntly, the unemployment period is certainly the lowest point in my life.

However, the Lord is faithful and finally, after much seeking, a door is finally open.  Initially, I thought one of the previous interview went well, and I was expecting an offer in a few days time. I was also prepared to attend church only 2 times a month (as the job is a shift job which requires one to work on weekend twice a month), but turns out in the end, it's only one door. What's more it's a job with constant hours that comes along with good salary - which means I could attend church weekly, and also serve!

Truly, the blessing that come is better than I could ever ask or imagine. Although there may be ups and downs since my official first project (beginning from May 2014), the experience is certainly worthwhile, and I certainly relishes more challenges in the upcoming year, and also hopefully to improve my communication with my lead.

April 2014- Dec 2014

In April, I have decided to join a CG after months of attending New Creation Church (and in the process, have decided NCC to be my home church after much consideration).

It's a hard time letting go of my past and transition to a new environment especially when I have already attended City Harvest Church for like 4 years - and also made some true friends as well (whom I still hang out and keep in touch with) over those period.

However, I truly feel that it is the season to shift due to some reasons and the decision is certainly well worth it in the end, whereby I got acquainted with West Coast Rise CG in May 2014.

Firstly, through West Coast Rise CG, I got to know lots of awesome people - a CG that truly does life together, besides encouraging and sharing insights with each other during small group sessions. It's a season in my life where I truly enjoy and in the process become a bit more 'outgoing' though I am definitely still an introvert at heart. =)

Some pictures taken since May-now are as followed:-



Christmas Celebration during Gen Rev


The period whereby we bid farewell to our CG leader Ruth, as she is stepping into another season of greater glory.





Hanging out together at Sentosa, a place where I have not been to since the last Freshman Orientation Camp. :D


Celebration of birthdays (in the picture, we were celebrating Rachel's birthday during Gen Rev camp)


Attending Joycelyn's convocation together (which also came as a surprise) 


Group photo taken during Gen Rev Camp



The memories made with the CG is one that I would always treasure. It's truly the season of greater glory for me in the year 2014.

Not to forget some random catch-ups with friends over the past few months.



Pictures taken during Fiona's wedding and my old CG mates while in CF.


Picture taken at Gardens by the Bay (my first time there), supporting a friend that is performing (singing carols) to the public



Dec 2014 - family vacation

In Dec, have also went back to my hometown, meeting up with my family! It's been a while since I last went back. I do still miss my small cheeky little sister, who have just completed her SPM examinations. As a brother, sometimes can't help but to disturb her. :D

We had a pleasant trip in Medan/Lake Toba (one of the reasons why I went back in Dec), and enjoyed a luxurious stay at JW Marriot on the last day.

Pictures of some sceneries taken during the trip:-


Waterfall viewed from the top


A full view of Lake Toba from the top.


Volcano


Would also like to share a summary on the Christmas message preached in New Creation recently, which is centered around Romans 8:31-32.

Romans 8:31-32Amplified Bible (AMP)31 What then shall we say to [all] this? If God is for us, who [can be] against us? [Who can be our foe, if God is on our side?] 32 He who did not withhold or spare [even] His own Son but gave Him up for us all, will He not also with Him freely and graciously give us all [other] things?

If God have given us the greatest gift (which is salvation through His Son, whom He loves. Indeed you can only understand how much God loves you if you know how much God loves His son), how can He not freely give us all things? What is to God the temporal gifts? And if indeed God gives the greater, wouldn't he give us the lesser?

Also, if God even cloth the grass, won't he much more cloth you? (as you are obviously more valuable than the grass) (Matthew 6:30)

It is a message whereby God will supply all things you will ever need (Note it is not 'WANT') according to His richness in glory by Christ Jesus (Phillipians 4:19). Trust that He knows what is best for you.

Of course this does not apply if :-

1. It is done in a wrong spirit (ie covetousness/greediness)

2. Your request causes more harm than good to you/ causes you to fall away from Him 

3. You are not ready to receive it yet/ the foundation is not strong. 

Note that the above is solely my opinion and may/may not have been preached in pulpit.

I believe that it is incorrect too to seek the gift more instead of the giver - as this passage could be misinterpreted to be as such, whereby it causes one to be self-centered as the focus is upon your own needs. However, that is another topic all together for another time. =)

Lastly, to end this post, here is my 3 prayer request (vision) for the year 2015, which I am trusting God to manifest in its time!


To summarize again, it's been truly a great and blessed 2014, and I believe that greater things are still to come in the year 2015!

Happy new year 2015 readers (if my readers still exists)! =)

Tuesday, November 25, 2014

Refuge (updated with chords)

It seems ages since I last blogged. Time and priority certainly changed a lot once you started working, and at times, my emotions certainly got the better of me which got to seriously tone down at times. It seems ironic that I appear as patient, cool and flexible outside work, but during working hours, I find it just hard to be the person that I am outside work.

Anyway, loved this new song composed by New Creation Church - and it certainly brings a reminder about God, who He is to me - my refuge, my strong tower.

Chords are as below (from hearing. So, it may not be 100% accurate but I sure hope it is close to it)

Key: E

Starting

B C#m A
B C#m A

Verse 1 

    E                                            B
I call upon Your name, You delivered me from harm 
           C#m                                         A
In the shadow of Your wings no fear comes 
    E                                        B
I turn to You alone, Jesus, You’re my guiding light
           C#m                                        A 
In the presence of Your love I will abide 

Instrumental

B C#m A
B C#m A

Verse 2 

        E                                                B
No matter what the storm, You command the surging seas 
               C#m                                  A
At Your word there is a calm and a peace 
      E                                     B     
Forever in Your heart, I can never fall away 
                C#m                                     A
For Your faithful love endures age to age 

 Chorus 

           A        E                    A              E
For I say out loud, You are my strong tower 
                A        B            E
You will rescue me, Yahweh 
          A             E                  A                  E
I will not grow faint but my heart grows stronger 
          A             B              E
As I choose to seek Your face 

Instrumental
C#m A
E B

 Bridge 
  
     C#m                     A  
I run to You, my refuge, for You are on my side 
       E                            B/D# (this one could be B, but certain stage have D#)
 Hosanna, hosanna! God arise!

The clip below is recorded live from service, so quality may not be good as it is recording quality, though I would say it shows how the song goes. :D




Updated.. NCC has just released the 2015 album Anthem Of Grace. Here is the song (which I hope it would not be removed due to copyright) :D




Saturday, June 21, 2014

Sharing on Amos 9

Recently, this verse from Amos 9 was shared in Gen Rev, and in my small group.

Amos 9:11-15 (MSG)


11-12 “But also on that Judgment Day I will restore David’s house that has fallen to pieces. I’ll repair the holes in the roof, replace the broken windows, fix it up like new. David’s people will be strong again and seize what’s left of enemy Edom, plus everyone else under my sovereign judgment.” God’s Decree. He will do this. 
13-15 “Yes indeed, it won’t be long now.” God’s Decree.“Things are going to happen so fast your head will swim, one thing fast on the heels of the other. You won’t be able to keep up. Everything will be happening at once—and everywhere you look, blessings! Blessings like wine pouring off the mountains and hills. I’ll make everything right again for my people Israel:“They’ll rebuild their ruined cities.They’ll plant vineyards and drink good wine.They’ll work their gardens and eat fresh vegetables.And I’ll plant them, plant them on their own land.They’ll never again be uprooted from the land I’ve given them.”God, your God, says so.

The passage above spoke about restoration and blessings to the people of Israel. It is also a strong reminder to us that no one can unbless when God have blessed (they'll never again be uprooted from the land I've given them), which is a similar case when Balaam was asked to curse God's people, but instead blessings come out from Balaam's mouth.

Similarly, when we apply this to our situation and believe it, with an expectant heart, and receive it, the time of acceleration would indeed come (it won't be long) - where God's blessings will overflow in our life- so fast and sudden that we could not even keep up with it. Not only that, we could also trust God for our restoration - be it in our relationship, career or anything else. Indeed, the message is pretty simple but truly powerful as shown by this picture posted on Instagram recently.





Also, in Isaiah 40:28-31 (AMP) it said:

28 Have you not known? Have you not heard? The everlasting God, the Lord, the Creator of the ends of the earth, does not faint or grow weary; there is no searching of His understanding.29 He gives power to the faint and weary, and to him who has no might He increases strength [causing it to multiply and making it to abound].30 Even youths shall faint and be weary, and [selected] young men shall feebly stumble and fall exhausted;31 But those who wait for the Lord [who expect, look for, and hope in Him] shall change and renew their strength and power; they shall lift their wingsand mount up [close to God] as eagles [mount up to the sun]; they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint or become tired.
The verse stresses about God's provision- whereby even if we feel tired or just could not take it any more (one example would be we might struggle in our work/relationship/anything currently), we trust that He would provide us strength to overcome this. In other words, we focus on His abundance (look towards Him- He is never lacking and trust that everyday He will lift us up to another level in our work etc), and not our lack/our own strength to overcome the challenges.

Trust me, if we depend on our strength too often, it could lead to burn-out quick - experienced that personally. I am still learning on the application of the verse, but probably the key to this is in the next verse.

- waiting for the Lord. Note that waiting here does not mean waiting passively, and not doing anything. It is waiting 'with expectancies and hope'. In another word, it is to bind together with the Lord whereby our strength comes from Him. A nice picture related to waiting is portrayed below as shared by my CG leader Ruth.


It is a picture whereby the small birds wait with expectancies for their mother on their food (in our case - blessing and restoration in our life, work, relationship etc). Noticed that the small birds are 'hungry' for it. Probably the same level of hunger and expectancies should be shown in our life when we seek Him - and He will then provide us so much blessings that we could not keep up with it, but such that we want to share it with people around us to bless others (as He have blessed us with so much.)

Personally, I am also trusting Him for things like work and relationship (not going to elaborate more. Probably another time. =) )

Truly, the message above spoke out to me - and reminded me that all I need to do simply is to trust Him, pray with expectancies and receive it by faith. Simply put, it would be an effortless journey when He is in the picture.

P.S: It is just so blessed to be part of the sharing session where each person shared about what truly spoke out to them - on the verse, and their personal experience/thoughts. Looking expectantly for more to come! :)

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