Starting out again is never easy. Disappointments come and go but life still moves on. So, no matter what problem you are facing, you can always start afresh, with God guiding you through. And there is always a glint of hope even in the darkest hour. -Lawrence-
Like A fire, from planetshakers 'One'. (wondering when it will reach SG though)
This is probably one of the nicest and 'anointed' song from planetshakers. Found myself listening to it for the past few days.. Even now, the chorus part is still echoing in my ears.. lol..
Personally, I feel this song really helps in worship especially when I am facing a bit of stress due to final exam and public speaking assignment (25 marks) that will come very soon..
Anyway, a big thanks to a friend who send me that particular song.. Really appreciate it..
Lyrics is as below. Enjoy. (just uploaded the entire song in imeem) :)
Verse 1 Like a fire shut up in my bones I want the world to know You are God
With a passion burning deep within I want the world to know That You live
Verse 2 Let Your presence come and saturate Every part of me Make me new
Let Your Spirit come and move within Fill me once again I need more
Pre-chorus Jesus I'm desperate for You Jesus I'm hungry for You Jesus I'm longing for You Lord You are, all I want
Chorus Come like a flood And saturate me now You're all I want Come like the wind And sweep throughout this place You're all we want
Once an important decision have been made, please don't ever be influenced by people around you until you become indecisive, like me. When in doubt, it's good to seek advice from friends but still, the final decision is still yours to made.
As for me, I have already decided to S/U econs due to the following reasons which I feel is justified enough:
1. My physics is very weak. So, thanks to Sharon for the GPA calculator, I have already calculated that I need to get at least a B for Physics to be eligible for first class honours (provided I could achieve what I have targeted for the other subjects)
2. If let's say I get B for Physics, I would need to get A- for econs. And obviously it's difficult for me to get A- for econs without having strong concepts. I believe that in order to get that grade, you must at least have a strong foundation, and not depend on pure memorization alone. Sadly, that's not the case with econs. It's really a subject which I should not have chosen earlier on.
3. After S/U-ing econs, it means I could spend more time on my weakest subject, which is physics. So, I am actually hoping that I could get a grade higher than B in physics (to minimize risk of not getting what I expect for other subjects)
And to be frank, once I have make that decision to S/U it, I feel happier, and it's like part of the burden have been lifted off from me. So, perhaps it's the most logical thing to do. :)
Just a note to myself:
Don't ever regret the decisions which you have made. Since it's your own choice, you have to bear the consequences of your choice that you have just made. And since you have already S/U econs, please dear me, do choose other subjects (PE) wisely next time (one that don't require lots of writing and explanations)..
1. Lack of time, as expected. So, skipped a few minor questions since I don't have time for that. >< 2. Did careless mistakes (which I could actually avoid) due to time pressure.. :(
Nevertheless, I hope my marks would still be 80 and above. It is possible provided I didn't make any careless mistakes in other questions. HOPEFULLY.
And just a random thought here.. Nowadays I am wondering why I am being so 'kiasu', as in not satisfied with what I get, not willing to lose out to others and not happy to be labelled as just an 'average' student. Last time, I am not like that (even getting 50 marks for chem is okay for me) but now, I could feel dissatisfied if I don't get the marks which I am aiming for and when I see a lot of people did better than me, there's just a feeling of jealousy coming within me (especially in Bio).. Guess that's a change happening in me due to strong competition here. However, I do not know whether it's a positive or negative change..
As for my econs, I just need to understand the concepts (so that I can at least crap something in my finals) and based on advice from seniors, it is not wise to S/U Econs since the average grade is between B and A. However, due to unforeseen circumstances whereby I do not feel confident (after the talk with some seniors and also after seeing last year test paper), I feel it would be risky. Cause if I don't understand basic concepts and only depend on memorization for the microeconomics part, I am seriously doomed right? Now higher chance to S/U-ing that subject. I hope I would make the correct decision later, cause even though most people get between B and A, some still get B- and I do not want to be the latter..
Hmm.. okay, back to mugging for Chemistry and Bio before the combined supper later.. :(
P.S: Thankfully I did not wake up 'too late' today. Alarm clock woke me up at 7.50, and I slept for another one hour later...=.= Luckily still manage to reach the exam hall on time, but was a bit disorganized and out of form. Next time, I will get someone to wake me up if there is an important event.. Zzzzzz..
1. Econs quiz is tomorrow, and well, since it's objective, hopefully common sense would be enough to get the answers correct.
2. Maths quiz is on Fri. Lacking of practice now, but hopefully would remember what I had done in my tutorial. Is 2 days enough to revise maths? hopefully yes. I got 3 quiz samples and answers to train myself on. :)
This friday would be the combined AMCISA and MSA supper gathering, and so, part of the time would be gone again (loss in economic surplus.. am I getting the correct term here? lol)..
After this 2 quizzes, I would still have 2 more quizzes to study on- bio (monday) and chem (thurs). For physics, hopefully someone would be able to help me out again, cause basically don't have time to read up on physics as I am mugging over econs currently.. :(
This song was written by 2 amazing girls (with amazing voice).. However, that's not the main issue here (although I am officially one of their fans after hearing them singing "Officially Missing You") *wink*
This is the song I bring to you Nothing made up no fancy tunes I'm singing whatever's on my heart
I'm sure you have so much to say If only I gave you a minute a day I think I would have more songs for you
Sometimes I wonder I question Was that your voice or my imagination I don't know I don't know
Still you say you love me Whenever I doubt and walk away You follow me you follow me
I'm amazed by you I'm amazed by you I'm amazed by you and how you love me
So many times my faith grows weak And so many times you're the last one i seek I don't know what you see in me
When I complain that I can't hear Your voice in my heart You say you're near You whisper songs into my ears
So here I am singing a song that I wrote And here I am playing guitar that I don't know how to play but that's okay (right?)
Cuz you are the one who has sung over me It's more than just a-ny old epiphany So won't you captivate our ears
I feel it's a song from the heart (humble and sincere), especially on the italic part which have been highlighted here.
The lyrics written truly reflected what I am feeling at times, and it's just pretty amazing to think the Lord still sees something in me and loves me the way I am, though I may disappoint Him A LOT of times (times when I have doubts/ only seek Him when I couldn't handle it any more).
Well, hope the song would bless you too. :)
P.S: Going to have a great fellowship at Kallang soon.. can't wait for it.. =)
I have been thinking about this for quite some time.
Is it possible to enjoy life and yet get good grades?
Or is a person only entitled to choose either one of the options and neglect the other?
I realize that's its impossible to spend enough time on my studies (like what I used to do for STPM). Next, it's practically not possible too to know whether you are REALLY truly prepared for exam. However, it's possible to know how 'well' you score after you sat for your CA/quiz paper.
And if one chooses to mug your entire hours on book, that would bring serious consequences as well. It's difficult to maintain a sense of balance in life sometimes.
Yes, there's still LOTS of things to do, and I wonder how one is able to cope with all this.. And it is certainly not wise to sacrifice studies for the sake of other things even though other things are equally important as well. Sometimes, I wonder how seniors manage to do it and still maintain a good CGPA which is 4.0 and above.
And yeah, to be honest, I am quite afraid and paranoid that I would get a C for my Physics since I DID not do A LOT of questions like what the Form 6 students in my school usually did for their STPM preparations.
The reasons are pretty straight forward.. Lack of time ( I still need to balance my time between all the subjects, right?), insufficient understanding, lack of sample exam questions and no good teachers to guide. So, as you can see, this few factors are the main problem which I am facing and I am totally clueless on how I am able to go through all of this.. It applies to other subjects as well, like econs.
Okay, got to finish up some minor stuffs before getting back to my studies. :(
*Lord, even though trials WILL certainly come my way, help me to constantly keep focus on You and to trust that You will help me to go through this period.*
Yes, my previous post may mention that one should never ever give up, but now I am just on the verge of doing it. So ironic, isn't it?
I feel sick, being unable to do my econs tutorial questions even though it looked so easy. Currently, I am learning national savings, private savings, public savings and national saving rate.... Yes, I know what are the formulas but when it comes to the questions, only one word appears... Dead.
Eg: They would give raw datas and then one ought to categorize it into the formula given. The problem with me is... I don't know how to categorize it according to the formulas. :(
WHY CAN'T I EVER GET THE CONCEPT FOR ECONS?! Am I asking too much? I just want to understand the concepts but somehow, my poor little mind don't seem to understand it. I have told myself not to give up and take things slowly, but I certainly don't have a lot of time left especially when my first econs quiz will come very soon.. Final would come in less than 30 days. Do I still have time left in me? :( :( :(
Sorry for being so negative here, but I feel it's a good thing to let go everything which I feel in my own personal blog before I fall into a situation where I will feel 'depressed'.
And yes, for the question mentioned above, I refer to lecture notes and the text book to see how to do it, but the datas are given in such a way where I don't know which datas I should exclude from the formula and which not to exclude. This sucks. Seriously, I wonder whether there will be any 'easy' subjects which would interest me. (from AHSS) Cause I just might use up one of my S/U this time even though I DON'T WANT TO. =.=
Just thinking... Maybe it's better to let one subject die(physics) instead of allowing both subjects to die together (physics and econs). Okay, that's all for now. And hopefully the situation which I am facing now would get better by the end of this week.
A special thanks to someone who forwarded this email to me. It's pretty inspiring when I first read it. So, just thought of sharing this here. :) [edited slightly]
Read on..
One day I decided to quit... I quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality... I wanted to quit my life. I went to the woods to have one last talk with God. "God", I asked, "Can you give me one good reason not to quit?"
His answer surprised me....
"Look around", He said. "Do you see the fern and the bamboo?"
"Yes", I replied.
"When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good care of them. I gave them light. I gave them water. The fern quickly grew from the earth.. Its brilliant green covered the floor. Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo.
In the second year the fern grew more vibrant and plentiful. And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo. In year three, there was still nothing from the bamboo seed.
But I would not quit.
In year four, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed. I would not quit." He said.
"Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth. Compared to the fern, it was seemingly small and insignificant....But just 6 months later, the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall. It had spent the five years growing roots. Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive. I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle."
He asked me. "Did you know, my child, that all this time when you have been struggling, you have actually been growing roots".
" Remember. I DID NOT quit on the bamboo even when it did not produce any things useful earlier on. Similarly, I will never quit on you."
"Don't compare yourself to others, "He said. "The bamboo had a different purpose than the fern. Yet they both make the forest beautiful."
"Your time will come", God said to me. "You will rise high"
"How high should I rise?, "I asked.
"How high will the bamboo rise?" He asked in return. "As high as it can?" I questioned.
"Yes." He said, "Give me glory by rising as high as you can."
I left the forest and brought back this story. I hope these words can help you see that God will never give up on you.
Remember.. Never, Never, Never Give up.
For the Christian Prayer is not an option but an opportunity.
Don't tell the Lord how big the problem is, tell the problem how Great the Lord is!
Like a fire shut up in my bones I want the world to know You are God
With a passion burning deep within I want the world to know That You live
Let Your presence come and saturate Every part of me Make me new
Let Your Spirit come and move within Fill me once again I need more
Jesus I'm desperate for You Jesus I'm hungry for You Jesus I'm longing for You Lord You are, all I want
Come like a flood And saturate me now You're all I want Come like the wind And sweep throughout this place You're all we want
The sample sounds nice. I am guessing that this would probably be one of my favourite song from the album 'One' which would be coming out end of this October.
You could also listen to samples from this album here.
http://planetshakers.com/music/latest.php
Lastly, here's the album artwork. :)
*************************************************************** Random status:
Currently a bit depressed in knowing that A LOT of people score A LOT better than me in bio (even though I have STPM Bio background). However, I shall not elaborate on that further. Perhaps it's a wake-up call for me. And thankfully, I am reminded that it's not the end yet as there would still be a second quiz that carries the same weightage this coming Nov. I pray that when the time comes, I would be more prepared for it and also in the other upcoming quizzes!
Scripture verse of the day:
*I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Phil 4:13*
I think this is perhaps the first time in my life that I CHOOSE to attend a morning prayer that starts at 7 am in the morning. It seems that it's not bad after all to wake up so early in the morning even though I had classes on from 930 until 630 (non-stop)..
Actually, before this, I had been giving excuses like 'being unable to wake up so early' when I was first asked to come.. Guess that excuse is just merely an excuse, and I think, in the end it all boils down to whether I want to go or whether I don't. In short, it's a decision which I have to made.
Personally, I am glad that I have made the right decision, which is to attend this morning prayer service cause it somehow strengthens me spiritually during that time. Can't explain it in words, but yeah, the service was plain awesome. One could really feel the anointing there while all of us were praying in tongues/worshiping Him/seeking Him. And there's another thing that amazed me. A LOT of people attended this morning prayer.. Basically, it's like being in Sunday/Saturday's service where the 'numbers' are still there. I guess this is really an eye-opener to me.
And yes, some may call it craziness or even think I am insane for waking up at an ungodly hour like this. (Most NTU students don't wake up at 6 am. Trust me.) And although I might be a bit tired now, I guess it's all worth it. Hoping to receive more from Him during this entire week. Till then, I am off, doing my physics assignment.
The author is currently an undergraduate in NTU, taking Biomedical Engineering, supposedly one of the most difficult course in NTU, whereby he has to know everything concerning engineering(materials, electronics etc). He is hoping that he could survive his 4 years in NTU, make lots of friends that will last for a lifetime and also achieving first class honours even though it might appear to be tough at present. To contact the author, kindly email at lawrence_teoh2002@yahoo.com.
