Tuesday, November 10, 2015

Life Partner Desire

It's been 2 months since the break-up and since then, have not be in contact with her at all due to getting blocked, partly from my own folly. Life's been busy, and sometimes these questions still pops out.

Would things be different if I did not went back to my hometown? Is it all part of God's will - that we broke up, and if yes, why then even have the relationship in the first place? 

Or is there something that God wants to show to me - about what a relationship is, and allow me to experience it first hand knowing all the problems that would come out so that in future, those would be expected? After all, I have jumped into this out of faith (and due to being attracted to her personality and the common grounds which we have in the first place), and perhaps I might not even be fully prepared to pay the price for it when we first started out. 

So, you may ask what is the price to pay? From my limited experience, I would say that your life is no longer "yours" when there is a "someone" in your life. You got to learn how to care about the needs of your other half (not only your own need), and be willing to take comments (include criticism) which would involve change - and change is hard especially when there is a lot of change required. Ah yes, you would need to also be respectful of the elders and be tactful especially when there are disagreements. 

Besides that, when differences arose in opinions/ different expectations, it's really important to talk it out - on why the frustration happens. When this happens (which will definitely happen in any relationship), both couple have to bring it up to the Lord and pray about it together. If Christ is in the center of the relationship (and He is our focus), honestly, I wouldn't think those frustrations etc would be permanent. Thus, I am concluding that perhaps when we were together, the focus is not truly on Him even though we might have done bible reading/study together, pray together and discussed about those expectations. Yes, we did almost all the "correct stuffs" which a couple should do, but still fall apart for some reasons.

Besides the reflection above, have also asked why do I even need a life partner in the first place. After all, Paul is also single right? And he can focus more on his ministry because of that. 

After thinking about that question, my honest answer would be that I long for companionship and the fact is.... I do not want to live my life alone for the rest of my life. I want to have kids of my own, where I am able to experience the joy (and frustration) of parenting. I want the thrills of being able to love and be loved! 

Have also been thinking what I would be looking for in a life partner. This time, I would be more specific when asking from God. The ideal characteristics/factors that I would look for is :-

1. Culture/background. I would prefer it if the girl is also from NCC, and serving in ministry. In my opinion, if both comes from different church, it could be a huge barrier especially when the culture of the church is also different (ie one practice speaking in tongues and another not at all). Or rather charismatic vs traditional. 

2. Personality. She have to be wise, independent, patient, radiant, understanding and most importantly, "whole". It's very hard to maintain the relationship if the girl still carries some baggage from her past relationship, which do happens in my case often. She also have to be able to make decisions by herself without being too dependent on parents/what other people would say. 

3. Chemistry/common ground. Without chemistry, it's hard to even begin a relationship. Of course, I would need to first know that I am able to communicate with her, and hopefully able to reach the stage where we are able to discuss deeper topics about our future, dreams, and how we can grow together in the Lord etc. The girl would also be able to accept who I am and not expect me to change overnight/to conform to the expectation of her parents etc. 

Of course, admittedly my weaknesses could frustrate a girl at times, but it would be great and ideal if the girl instead be someone that is able to walk this journey with me, and instead gives pointers on how to improve and not be angry/frustrated when things are still not perfect/up to expectation yet.

4. Appearance/Looks. It's important to be at least someone that is pretty in my eyes. ;) Would prefer someone that is long hair though. ;)

5. Able to help each other grow together in the Lord through the word! This is perhaps the most important factor when searching for a life partner. When we are both focused on the Lord, indirectly, both of us would also go closer towards each other and as mentioned earlier, any differences/frustration would not even be an issue in the first place if this is the primary focus.

On my side, changes that would be required is :-

1. Being whole and secure. I need to learn how to enjoy being alone first (with the Lord), and let the wounds heal as time passes. It's selfish to carry my hurts and disappointment from my first relationship, and then have the next girl try to heal it. That is not the way either especially if my expectation is for a girl that is "whole". 

2. Forget about financial concerns/being money-minded. This is one of my biggest weakness. I always worry about the cost of wedding etc when I am with her (maybe partly due to pressure that I need to get marry in 1-2 years due to her grandmother/mum expectation). Have to learn to trust the Lord in such areas and not let this even affect the relationship. 

3. Learn how to lead. Have been talking with a Christian friend in workplace regarding this, and I do agree that a guy have to know how to lead the family. She did mention that being a leader in workplace does not mean you are a good leader at home. Probably one way is to read books on that - to improve myself in this area and besides that, pray. 

4. Be more mature - in thoughts and able to handle my own emotions well. I believe this relates to point 1. 

In short, as I am writing this post, I am praying and believing that God would help me and be with me in the preparation process towards receiving what He has in store for me in the future - include life partner, career etc.

In my opinion, no point praying about blessings if you are not even ready in the first place to receive it, which is why I personally believe the preparation process is more important than receiving the gift itself. As for how long the preparation process is, I would not know, but I know that He do knows my heart desire! ;) 

Monday, September 21, 2015

Lessons learned from first relationship

It was a sweet period of 6 months of getting to know her and asking her to be official- as my first love. Abruptly, it ends on 15 Sep 2015 which came as a shock to me as I was expecting us to meet to talk about this issue, but certainly not to this extent! Admittedly, it's due to my fault of not reacting appropriately at many occasions and also frustrations from her side as she feels she always need to tell me what to do.

But still, an honest reflection from my side...

Overall, she is a really sweet and nice girl albeit a little controlling (shown by the creation of a green note book that details what I should do and not do, which is a put off to me actually. But because I love her, I agree with that, although I did attempted to bring out another book - a book of positives which does not come to pass). 

I can see that she would like her future husband (unfortunately not me) to be able to provide the security that she needed, have a strong ambition/hunger for success (aka money/confidence), and one that is able to please her parents - which unfortunately I did displease her parents on a few occasions, especially the recent Ipoh trip, which is a catalyst for the break-up in this relationship. 

Have regretted a lot of things that I have done during this small trip. However, what is done is done, and the only thing is to move on now (which is hard especially when I have gone in so deep). The deeper you go, the more the hurt would be. 

Also, some thoughts that came out from my mind after this break up as an act to comfort myself and to move on..

If she can't even accept my weaknesses (which is a lot I admit), how then would this relationship be sustained in the long term? I did attempt to correct some of the weaknesses pointed out by her, but of course do stumble at times, whereby she would be instantly upset when I 'repeat' some of the mistakes. Did repeatedly asked her to try to focus on the strengths instead, but unfortunately it is perhaps the way that she was bought up, whereby she is attentive to all the 'minor details' which honestly shouldn't even been an issue in the first place.. 

Then there's a difference between 'church practices' whereby I might have to go to a traditional church, and to be honest, I am not sure whether I would be happy to do so (as she is pretty firm on this point and sees leaving her own church similar to leaving the parents, which I find the explanation absurd.  Remember, I also leave my parents to come to Singapore to work, but that does not mean I leave them as they are always in my heart). 

Have avoided arguing with her to the best that I can, and admittedly, sometimes it could just be too one-sided, whereby I might not even have any say on anything at all. Also, the fact that she decided to just break up without even wanting to meet/ doing a final closure upsets me greatly. Certainly not what I expect from a girl like her - a person that avoids confrontation due to fear.. 

Thus, my father may be right that it's probably the best for the both of us to break up, and that I should be thankful that she was the one who initiates this, as I am sure I would not be able to do so due to my character of being loyal, and one that would always try to resolve problems peacefully. Not sure whether she would even stay in contact or not as a "friend" after this, but probably not! On my side, I would always be open to discuss about this, as a friend.

There's definitely a lot to learn about improving myself overall, and this experience may show that I am not ready to get into a relationship - until I can improve on being attentive, financially more stable (which leads to confidence), generous and show high level of respect/understanding to the elders even though I may not agree with everything that they said. 

Through this experience, I learned more about myself, improved myself a bit on the bad habits and most importantly experience the feeling of love and being loved, although it was not a fairy tale ending unfortunately. 

I also realized that people around me are very supportive during this tough period and it certainly helps in the "letting go" part and make me realized how blessed I am, and how good daddy God is, that He did not let me go through this alone! I am blessed to have a good CGL, great parents, and nice colleagues who have advised me a lot during this period. Really appreciate all of them! 

The next chapter in my life is still unclear to me, but probably I would devote more time in serving in church, feeding on His word, and just let Him be my guide in everything. I should not be forcing stuffs, but rather just rest on His unfailing love! 

He certainly knows my desire for a life partner, and I would continue to trust in Him in that area, taking things more slowly the next time around (instead of going too fast like this one, which result in pain and disappointment)

A friend have experienced this similar issue, and I like what she have commented in the end. 

Looking back, I am thankful. For without these seasons of being broken, my heart would not have been ready to experience the blessings and Joy He is waiting to pour out on me. My hands needed to be emptied off the things I was clinging on to, in order to receive what He wanted to give me. Broken, rebuilt. Broken, rebuilt. The cycle goes on, but we can emerge each time from strength to strength and from glory to glory, if and only if we are willing to release our own hurts and dreams to Him, and let Him be the one writing your story. There can be no lasting Joy apart from being with Him. And truly, no long-lasting Inside Out transformation would be possible. 

For me, would like to end up this post with this verse (Romans 8:28)

And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose..

And yes, this include the bad, the ugly, broken hearts, and everything. Just let all those things go, put it into God's mighty hands, and let Him turn it into something glorious! 

Wednesday, August 26, 2015

Love On The Line

A nice cover done by a few youths from New Creation Church. Enjoy!

Previous video (Open Heaven) was removed due to copyright infringement. Hopefully this one won't as it is a cover! :)

You put your love on the line
To bear the weight of sin that was mine
Washing my river of wrongs 
Into the sea of your infinite love 

With arms held high 
Lord I give my life 
Knowing I'm found in Christ 
In your Love forever

With all I am 
By your Grace I stand 
The greatest of all romance 
Love of God my Saviour 

Mercy roars like hurricane winds 
Furious love laid waste to my sin 

To the one who has rescued my soul 
To the one who has welcomed me home
To the one who is saviour of all I sing forever

Sunday, July 5, 2015

Hillsong Conference 2015 - Open Heaven

It's been a long time since I last blogged, but just wanted to post something regarding Hillsong Conference 2015, a conference that I have longed to go for since I was young, and finally it comes to pass!

First off, let's come to a song that is just totally awesome, and which keeps echoing in my ears after the conference!

Here's the lyrics. Enjoy the song and may you catch the fire as well! :)

Verse 1

Signs and wonders from above
When You pour out Your spirit
On the old and the young
In the power of Your presence

Chorus 1

Holy spirit rain
Falling like a flood
Break upon my praise
As I sing of Your love

Holy spirit fire
Burn within my soul
As I call on Your name
As I call on Your name 

Verse 2

Dreams and visions of the son
As I stand in Your presence
Revelations of Your love
As I look to the heaven

Chorus 2

Oh Holy Spirit
Burn like a fire
All consuming
Consume me

Here in Your presence
Lord I surrender to Your glory
For Your glory


Living water
River wild in me
Immerse me in Your mercy
Open heavens crushing over me
Restore me to Your glory

Updated on 26 Aug. Video removed due to copyright infringement.

Update on 1st sep. Blogger have sent me a notice that I infringe copyright even though the video is already removed which I think it is a bit unfair but oh well, things do happen.

I hope the edited post have no copyright infringement? If lyrics also infringe copyright, I have NOTHING to say.

Monday, January 5, 2015

2015 - Year Of His RESToration

What could be more appropriate than naming the first post of 2015 with the church theme - the year of His RESToration? =)

Animation of the theme as shown during service:-

Just wanted to share a summary of the sermon from today (Vision Sunday)

Whatever the devil has taken from us, He will restores. And when He restores, the restoration would always be in greater quantity/quality or both. This is shown in Exodus 22:1

“If a man steals an ox or a sheep, and slaughters it or sells it, he shall restore five oxen for an ox and four sheep for a sheep.

and Leviticus 6:4-6

4 Then if he has sinned and is guilty, he shall restore what he took by robbery, or what he secured by oppression or extortion, or what was delivered him to keep in trust, or the lost thing which he found,
5 Or anything about which he has sworn falsely; he shall not only restore it in full, but shall add to it one fifth more and give it to him to whom it belongs on the day of his trespass or guilt offering.
6 And he shall bring to the priest his trespass or guilt offering to the Lord, a ram without blemish out of the flock, valued by you to the amount of his trespass;

This verse points to what the people should do under the old covenant when they have wronged someone. However, under the new covenant, it is Jesus that restores to us whatever the devil has taken, which is 120% (100% + 20% - one fifth). In other words, the greater the loss, the greater the restoration!

Even the years that you have lost (your own fault/years that you have sinned/wasted away etc), He could restore as shown in Joel 2:25

“So I will restore to you the years that the swarming locust has eaten, The crawling locust, The consuming locust, And the chewing locust, My great army which I sent among you. (Joel 2:25 NKJV)

One example which pastor have shown and which was not preached before is an incident happened within his own family whereby he actually did lost his second child before (I think I was kind of shocked when I heard that). However, the restoration was indeed there as the Lord bless him with Justin! Indeed, it is a message of hope whereby we should not be discouraged when something is lost as the restoration is indeed greater, which he could also see in Justin.

It reminded me about a verse (Genesis 50:20)

As for you, you thought evil against me, but God meant it for good, to bring about that many people should be kept alive, as they are this day.

What the enemy meant for evil, God will turn it for our good and many will be saved as they see us going through the fire and coming out stronger and more prosperous and blessed on the other side.

Another animation video:- (to show REST)


Our fight is a fight of faith (not feeling), we fight FROM victory and not for victory. All we need to do is to rest in the cross, His finished work which was often taught here in New Creation. However, it's interesting to see how it all linked up, as shown in Psalm 23:1-3

The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want. 
He makes me to lie down in green pastures; He leads me beside the still (rest) waters. 
He restores my soul; He leads me in the paths of righteousness For His name’s sake. (Psalms 23:1-3 NKJV)

As you can see, 'He restores my soul' is sandwiched between the words 'He leads me'. The first thing He made us do is to lie down in green pastures (green pastures represents food here). In other words, before He restores our soul, He wants us restful, resting in the things He has already done.

After that, He leads us in the paths of righteousness. Many a times, we do not have the strength to walk in the path of righteousness cause we are striving to achieve righteousness on our own strength, and there is no soul restoration as we do not REST.

The greatest activity that we can do is to be still (not inactive rest as it could be easily misunderstood as such), and let God take over, as shown in Ruth 3: 18

Then she said, “Sit still, my daughter, until you know how the matter will turn out; for the man will not rest until he has concluded the matter this day.” (Ruth 3:18 NKJV)

This is where the famous saying, "When you rest, God works! When you work, God rest!" comes from. Indeed, a truth where many are struggling with as it is often hard for us to 'rest' when there are so many 'demands' demanded of us and whereby we often wants to take matters in our own hand.

It is also one area whereby I am still learning from. Although there might be demands in the workplace, I could choose to do it with a restful spirit (instead of a disoriented, negative and troubled spirit).

Truly a message in season - resting in Him for our restoration.


And yes, my birthday is just over.

Thanks to Michelle and Daniel for treating me to a sumptuous dinner on Friday (I actually feel quite guilty as the bill is around $90) and being with me shopping for formal shirts ($58 for 2 quality shirts - something that is way cheaper than expected!)

Thanks to my CG who celebrated with me on New Year as well. =)

And lastly, thanks to a friend whom I just met, who gave me some really really awesome presents (I have not received a present and certainly have not expected this!)

Finding Your Life Partner series. Initially was shocked when I saw that but truly grateful for the gift, and it resonates well with one of my prayer requests/ vision that I wanted to see in my life for 2015! =)

A dvd series from the Zone - God's favor will cause you to reign in life! 

A bible! In fact, I am embarrassed to say that this is the only hardcopy of the bible that I have.

Encouraging messages =)

Never expected so many presents especially when she have not met me even once before. I mean I am already happy with wishes, and this certainly is what I would never expect. Truly grateful and thankful for her generous spirit, one which I ought to practice as well. =)

Time to end the first post of the year. Not sure when I would post again, but probably when I am free. =)

Wednesday, December 31, 2014

Reflections for year 2014

Finally it comes to the end of this year, where it's time to make a reflection ( in another word, a very long post) for things that have happened for the past year.

In short, 2014 is probably one of the best and most fruitful year ever (a big contrast from year 2013 - the year where I was at my lowest peak).

Timeline for 2014:-

January 2014 

Attended Joel's wedding, one of my close friend whom I have known for many years. Was pianist that time as well. =)

Well, the year may not start that great as I was still jobless in Jan, but still, some events like this do cheer up my soul!

March 2014

Alas, after awaiting an offer since August 2013, the job offer finally came this month, and trust me when I say this - it really sucks being jobless even after attending countless interviews/seeking advice from friend/browsing through job portals, agents and trying everything to the point of desperation whereby any job also can as long as I get one - even those jobs that are not suitable to my personality such as recruitment consultant/sales.

I still remembered the feeling of hitting rock bottom, unable to get out of the pit, rejected, wanting to give up and also wondering is there any purpose in life. Seeing all others around me (course mates, friends etc) getting employed (and yet I am not!) doesn't help much to my self-esteem either.  To put it bluntly, the unemployment period is certainly the lowest point in my life.

However, the Lord is faithful and finally, after much seeking, a door is finally open.  Initially, I thought one of the previous interview went well, and I was expecting an offer in a few days time. I was also prepared to attend church only 2 times a month (as the job is a shift job which requires one to work on weekend twice a month), but turns out in the end, it's only one door. What's more it's a job with constant hours that comes along with good salary - which means I could attend church weekly, and also serve!

Truly, the blessing that come is better than I could ever ask or imagine. Although there may be ups and downs since my official first project (beginning from May 2014), the experience is certainly worthwhile, and I certainly relishes more challenges in the upcoming year, and also hopefully to improve my communication with my lead.

April 2014- Dec 2014

In April, I have decided to join a CG after months of attending New Creation Church (and in the process, have decided NCC to be my home church after much consideration).

It's a hard time letting go of my past and transition to a new environment especially when I have already attended City Harvest Church for like 4 years - and also made some true friends as well (whom I still hang out and keep in touch with) over those period.

However, I truly feel that it is the season to shift due to some reasons and the decision is certainly well worth it in the end, whereby I got acquainted with West Coast Rise CG in May 2014.

Firstly, through West Coast Rise CG, I got to know lots of awesome people - a CG that truly does life together, besides encouraging and sharing insights with each other during small group sessions. It's a season in my life where I truly enjoy and in the process become a bit more 'outgoing' though I am definitely still an introvert at heart. =)

Some pictures taken since May-now are as followed:-

Christmas Celebration during Gen Rev

The period whereby we bid farewell to our CG leader Ruth, as she is stepping into another season of greater glory.

Hanging out together at Sentosa, a place where I have not been to since the last Freshman Orientation Camp. :D

Celebration of birthdays (in the picture, we were celebrating Rachel's birthday during Gen Rev camp)

Attending Joycelyn's convocation together (which also came as a surprise) 

Group photo taken during Gen Rev Camp

The memories made with the CG is one that I would always treasure. It's truly the season of greater glory for me in the year 2014.

Not to forget some random catch-ups with friends over the past few months.

Pictures taken during Fiona's wedding and my old CG mates while in CF.

Picture taken at Gardens by the Bay (my first time there), supporting a friend that is performing (singing carols) to the public

Dec 2014 - family vacation

In Dec, have also went back to my hometown, meeting up with my family! It's been a while since I last went back. I do still miss my small cheeky little sister, who have just completed her SPM examinations. As a brother, sometimes can't help but to disturb her. :D

We had a pleasant trip in Medan/Lake Toba (one of the reasons why I went back in Dec), and enjoyed a luxurious stay at JW Marriot on the last day.

Pictures of some sceneries taken during the trip:-

Waterfall viewed from the top

A full view of Lake Toba from the top.


Would also like to share a summary on the Christmas message preached in New Creation recently, which is centered around Romans 8:31-32.

Romans 8:31-32Amplified Bible (AMP)31 What then shall we say to [all] this? If God is for us, who [can be] against us? [Who can be our foe, if God is on our side?] 32 He who did not withhold or spare [even] His own Son but gave Him up for us all, will He not also with Him freely and graciously give us all [other] things?

If God have given us the greatest gift (which is salvation through His Son, whom He loves. Indeed you can only understand how much God loves you if you know how much God loves His son), how can He not freely give us all things? What is to God the temporal gifts? And if indeed God gives the greater, wouldn't he give us the lesser?

Also, if God even cloth the grass, won't he much more cloth you? (as you are obviously more valuable than the grass) (Matthew 6:30)

It is a message whereby God will supply all things you will ever need (Note it is not 'WANT') according to His richness in glory by Christ Jesus (Phillipians 4:19). Trust that He knows what is best for you.

Of course this does not apply if :-

1. It is done in a wrong spirit (ie covetousness/greediness)

2. Your request causes more harm than good to you/ causes you to fall away from Him 

3. You are not ready to receive it yet/ the foundation is not strong. 

Note that the above is solely my opinion and may/may not have been preached in pulpit.

I believe that it is incorrect too to seek the gift more instead of the giver - as this passage could be misinterpreted to be as such, whereby it causes one to be self-centered as the focus is upon your own needs. However, that is another topic all together for another time. =)

Lastly, to end this post, here is my 3 prayer request (vision) for the year 2015, which I am trusting God to manifest in its time!

To summarize again, it's been truly a great and blessed 2014, and I believe that greater things are still to come in the year 2015!

Happy new year 2015 readers (if my readers still exists)! =)

Tuesday, November 25, 2014

Refuge (updated with chords)

It seems ages since I last blogged. Time and priority certainly changed a lot once you started working, and at times, my emotions certainly got the better of me which got to seriously tone down at times. It seems ironic that I appear as patient, cool and flexible outside work, but during working hours, I find it just hard to be the person that I am outside work.

Anyway, loved this new song composed by New Creation Church - and it certainly brings a reminder about God, who He is to me - my refuge, my strong tower.

Chords are as below (from hearing. So, it may not be 100% accurate but I sure hope it is close to it)

Key: E


B C#m A
B C#m A

Verse 1 

    E                                            B
I call upon Your name, You delivered me from harm 
           C#m                                         A
In the shadow of Your wings no fear comes 
    E                                        B
I turn to You alone, Jesus, You’re my guiding light
           C#m                                        A 
In the presence of Your love I will abide 


B C#m A
B C#m A

Verse 2 

        E                                                B
No matter what the storm, You command the surging seas 
               C#m                                  A
At Your word there is a calm and a peace 
      E                                     B     
Forever in Your heart, I can never fall away 
                C#m                                     A
For Your faithful love endures age to age 


           A        E                    A              E
For I say out loud, You are my strong tower 
                A        B            E
You will rescue me, Yahweh 
          A             E                  A                  E
I will not grow faint but my heart grows stronger 
          A             B              E
As I choose to seek Your face 

C#m A

     C#m                     A  
I run to You, my refuge, for You are on my side 
       E                            B/D# (this one could be B, but certain stage have D#)
 Hosanna, hosanna! God arise!

The clip below is recorded live from service, so quality may not be good as it is recording quality, though I would say it shows how the song goes. :D

Updated.. NCC has just released the 2015 album Anthem Of Grace. Here is the song (which I hope it would not be removed due to copyright) :D

Saturday, June 21, 2014

Sharing on Amos 9

Recently, this verse from Amos 9 was shared in Gen Rev, and in my small group.

Amos 9:11-15 (MSG)

11-12 “But also on that Judgment Day I will restore David’s house that has fallen to pieces. I’ll repair the holes in the roof, replace the broken windows, fix it up like new. David’s people will be strong again and seize what’s left of enemy Edom, plus everyone else under my sovereign judgment.” God’s Decree. He will do this. 
13-15 “Yes indeed, it won’t be long now.” God’s Decree.“Things are going to happen so fast your head will swim, one thing fast on the heels of the other. You won’t be able to keep up. Everything will be happening at once—and everywhere you look, blessings! Blessings like wine pouring off the mountains and hills. I’ll make everything right again for my people Israel:“They’ll rebuild their ruined cities.They’ll plant vineyards and drink good wine.They’ll work their gardens and eat fresh vegetables.And I’ll plant them, plant them on their own land.They’ll never again be uprooted from the land I’ve given them.”God, your God, says so.

The passage above spoke about restoration and blessings to the people of Israel. It is also a strong reminder to us that no one can unbless when God have blessed (they'll never again be uprooted from the land I've given them), which is a similar case when Balaam was asked to curse God's people, but instead blessings come out from Balaam's mouth.

Similarly, when we apply this to our situation and believe it, with an expectant heart, and receive it, the time of acceleration would indeed come (it won't be long) - where God's blessings will overflow in our life- so fast and sudden that we could not even keep up with it. Not only that, we could also trust God for our restoration - be it in our relationship, career or anything else. Indeed, the message is pretty simple but truly powerful as shown by this picture posted on Instagram recently.

Also, in Isaiah 40:28-31 (AMP) it said:

28 Have you not known? Have you not heard? The everlasting God, the Lord, the Creator of the ends of the earth, does not faint or grow weary; there is no searching of His understanding.29 He gives power to the faint and weary, and to him who has no might He increases strength [causing it to multiply and making it to abound].30 Even youths shall faint and be weary, and [selected] young men shall feebly stumble and fall exhausted;31 But those who wait for the Lord [who expect, look for, and hope in Him] shall change and renew their strength and power; they shall lift their wingsand mount up [close to God] as eagles [mount up to the sun]; they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint or become tired.
The verse stresses about God's provision- whereby even if we feel tired or just could not take it any more (one example would be we might struggle in our work/relationship/anything currently), we trust that He would provide us strength to overcome this. In other words, we focus on His abundance (look towards Him- He is never lacking and trust that everyday He will lift us up to another level in our work etc), and not our lack/our own strength to overcome the challenges.

Trust me, if we depend on our strength too often, it could lead to burn-out quick - experienced that personally. I am still learning on the application of the verse, but probably the key to this is in the next verse.

- waiting for the Lord. Note that waiting here does not mean waiting passively, and not doing anything. It is waiting 'with expectancies and hope'. In another word, it is to bind together with the Lord whereby our strength comes from Him. A nice picture related to waiting is portrayed below as shared by my CG leader Ruth.

It is a picture whereby the small birds wait with expectancies for their mother on their food (in our case - blessing and restoration in our life, work, relationship etc). Noticed that the small birds are 'hungry' for it. Probably the same level of hunger and expectancies should be shown in our life when we seek Him - and He will then provide us so much blessings that we could not keep up with it, but such that we want to share it with people around us to bless others (as He have blessed us with so much.)

Personally, I am also trusting Him for things like work and relationship (not going to elaborate more. Probably another time. =) )

Truly, the message above spoke out to me - and reminded me that all I need to do simply is to trust Him, pray with expectancies and receive it by faith. Simply put, it would be an effortless journey when He is in the picture.

P.S: It is just so blessed to be part of the sharing session where each person shared about what truly spoke out to them - on the verse, and their personal experience/thoughts. Looking expectantly for more to come! :)

Sunday, May 18, 2014

My Rest

When the busy-ness in life comes, how do one find rest, to pause when there are just so many things to do and deadlines to be met all of the sudden? Probably something which I struggle with at times, but one where I am still learning daily.. To learn how to find true rest in Him, be still, to experience His love, to worship and just enjoy His presence.
The song that I am about to share is just so reflective on the theme rest, as mentioned as well in Psalms 23, where during my first time attending Gen Rev CG, the group reflected on the whole Psalms and shared with each other about the verse that speaks to us the most.

I was reminded about the dry season in my life- my 7 months long struggle in finding a full time job. When I come to think about it now including all the 'shit' that I have gone through, I really feel  now that it's God guide and direction where I would tend to fail some interviews ie recruitment consultant/ sales-related job (even though I have try my best to prepare for it and thought I would somehow pass one), seeing that my character is probably not suited with the sales line and probably I would not be able to last long in those types of job if I got into it.

It's just interesting to see how it all turns out at the end especially when I was really discouraged with life earlier and even have plans to leave Singapore due to unemployment. In short, I am really glad that that period is over, and I truly relishes to see what would unfold next in this new job, especially when I have just shifted to Tuas (pharmaceutical plant) recently. :)

Currently, my job as a validation engineer would require me to exhibit some important skills, which is patience and extreme accuracy to detail which I believe is also part of my strength. Although I may not fully like the fact that I do make some mistake as well (well, who doesn't?), I believe that as time passes, I would be more well-versed with what is required from me. Though there may be high expectancies regarding the quality of work that I am suppose to deliver, I am reminded yet again about 'rest', and know that He would guide me in the responsibilities which have been entrusted to me.

The lyrics of the songs are as below. Enjoy. :)
My soul finds rest in You my Jesus
My hiding place amid the storm
In pastures green You lead me down to lie
By waters still I shall abide
By waters still I shall abide
I shall not fear for times uncertain
I shall not look to my own strength
Into Your hands I place my hopes and plans
My trust is in the blood of the Lamb
My trust is in the blood of the Lamb
A crown of thorns pierced through Your temple
The blood that flowed took all my cares
What price You paid, what sacrifice You made
My life in Yours, Jesus my rest
My life in Yours, Jesus my rest

Tuesday, March 11, 2014

I will follow after You

I will follow after you as long as my soul lives
I will lift up my hands unto thy name O Lord
My mouth shall praise You because You have been my help

 In the shadow of Your wings will I rejoice my Lord
Your loving kindness overwhelms my soul O Lord
And I will bless You I will love You all my life

I will mediate on You in the darkest nights
Seek your face oh my Lord In the morning light
My soul longs for You in a dry and thirsty land

 In Your holy sanctuary will I behold Your face
Your loving right hand guides and covers all my ways
And I will love You for You love me all my life

I will give You glory
Pour my life upon Your feet
For Your grace and mercy
Is more than enough
More than enough

Recently, I was introduced to this song while attending service at New Creation Church, and I am truly blessed by this song. The lyrics just touched me deeply, and it reminds me that no matter what I may go through right now, if I truly follow Him, it is just what I should do in life.. to seek after Him, to praise Him for all the things that He has done as long as I am still in this world.

Yes, I may not have a full time now, but I know that I have already did my part in searching diligently for a suitable job (although it may be a really long period of 6-7 months), and now all I can do is just wait. No point rushing although I do admit money could be my sole concern right now.

Anyway, the last 2 interview was positive and I am hopeful that I would receive a reply in a few weeks time. However, even if the silence continues on, let His will be done because He knows what is best for my life. Even if I may be forced to leave Singapore due to unable to find employment, it may be His will after all, but still, I have a bond to serve, and I believe that I should not just give up just like that especially when it seems so close now to seal employment.

In short, let His will be done. I can only do my part by diligently seeking for jobs which are suitable, and He is the one who decides the job that I should be in ( which I will take it as a sign on whichever job offer comes first). In the mean time, I do have time to read up on books that I have missed. So, yeah, I do have things to do even if I may not be employed and lacking of money at the moment. :)


Found this cover nicely done on You Tube. Enjoy and be blessed. :)


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