Through It All

You are forever in my life
You see me through the seasons
Cover me with Your hand
And lead me in Your righteousness

And I look to You
And I wait on You

I'll sing to You Lord
A hymn of Love
For Your faithfulness to me
I'm carried in everlasting arms
You'll never let me go
Through it all

You are forever in my life
You see me through the seasons
Cover me with Your hand
And lead me in Your righteousness

Hallelujah

Indeed it's a challenge to live everyday's life. Yet, I am again reminded about God's faithfulness through this song. Where when we praise and worship Him, it's all ABOUT Him and NONE about me, about the act of surrendering, and casting all my burdens unto Him because He is faithful.

Why have I forgotten Him especially in my moments of weakness, during the times when I just feel everything is not going right in my life and letting emotions reign over my life? Well, the past few days have just been a bit down to me.

I can say that if I were to continue doing what I am doing (with days of deprived sleep), I would be indirectly killing away my days in uni. Not only that, my grade this sem could perhaps be the worst in my 4 years of studies since I am just not 'studying smart'.

Sometimes I do ask 'why do I have to go through all this #%*@' when in fact, the answer is..... just look to Him, surrendering to Him and allowing Him to reign over every part of my life- to have Him guiding me while I am doing my term paper, to have Him while I am doing my revision etc.

Well, this post is just my reflection based on this few days. Perhaps it's time to set my priority right and just be cheerful. Just remembered what my cell leader Sammie wrote in a sms earlier," With Christ in the vessel, we can smile at the storm". Well, sometimes simple act like that could just brighten up someone's day and I hope I could do the same to others too when an opportunity comes. :)

On a bright note, 11 pages of draft for term paper have been done. Still a few more to go. Yes, it may not be perfect since I can only write what I 'can' understand. But perhaps it's good to do this term paper - come to think of it (for long term). I have heard that to enter research field, you would have to be patient when encountering failures (where there might be some case where no results is observed while doing research) besides reading on all these journal articles (to be honest, I am actually hating it now) so that you could write one yourself in future. Perhaps this serves a good training for that purpose (and possibly fyp in future?) :)

Ending this post now.

P.S: Currently in a better mood after writing this.