Random thoughts

Would my life be all about that in future, just running the rat race? To define rat race, it's like someone spending a lot of effort running around, pursuing something, but in the end achieve nothing. I repeat.. NOTHING. Just something to be thought of cause I seriously feel I am moving in that direction.

If someone ask me why I am doing what I am doing (studying), the honest answer would be to get a secure job that have a decent salary. Honestly, I just do not have passion in studying, and I am only doing it or rather forcing myself to do it for the sake of getting a job. And when you are just not as smart as some people, you have to put in extra effort just to keep up with those smart ones in order for your GPA to be decent. This doesn't help knowing that you are an international student in a foreign country, where the consequences are disastrous if you don't do well enough.

Another thing or rather fact is grades matters A LOT especially in getting your first job, which includes passion, interest and relevant experience relating to the job which you are seeking, which the employer have to be able to see through during interview. Of course, after getting that first job, who would even bother asking about your GPA and stuffs like that? *longing for that time to happen*

Well, I still look back at my choice last time and wondered whether it's correct to choose to come here to further my studies. It's true that furthering my studies in Singapore helps to build up my endurance, especially in forcing yourself to like something which you have no interest in, but in the same way, it also make me 'kiasu', and slightly depressed when you know you are not really doing that well (negative traits).

P.S: Well, just finished my medical instrumentation notes. Some of it begins to make sense except Chen Peng's part (as usual). But whether I can answer the questions during exam is another thing. I don't intend to screw it up even though I don't like that module. Well, 2 Dec would be my last paper, where I won't have any more exams for the next 6 months. A relief indeed. Really looking forward to a life without lecture notes aka a clean desk.